How does one and one becomes two? If only all things were so simple as to just being the way it is. Complication arise out of actions that people make and sometimes i feel caught in the lies of my own thought. If only life were more obvious and less twisted!

I keep thinking about my life nowadays, and reminiscing the past. Nah, i am not being nostalgic or any sort! I can't seem to find a sense of real happiness or satisfaction in my life over the past few months. I know that i have gained a lot of knowledge and abilities, and i have definitely know myself a lot more better! But thinking through, is it enough? I don't want to keep feeling like there's this "thing" in me that is trapped. I don't want to keep hiding, but fear is conquering me. I am seriously beyond stressing myself with my "deep" thoughts sometimes!

Going on and on and on about what my life can offer is really tense. I can't seem to find what is the right thing to do most of the time. Is it right if you aren't happy with what you are suppose to do? I want to be happy, who doesn't, but at what cost? Now, i think I'm playing safe most of the time, but somehow it's not really satisfying to just not let go and be truly real. A taste of real life is what i needed!
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On the other note, my friend has been getting really frustrated over his university application! Its gonna be a hard time for him, but that's life, ups and downs. We never ever hope for perfection and we can never ever hope that everything goes according to your will. Sometimes, its just solely fate and luck! Not being accepted into that particular uni, indeed, it is saddening. But don't ever get pulled back by all this, there is still a lot of universities all around the world! Spy, listen to me! Get back to your real self. I know its hard coping with your bloody stress lately as well as all the pressure and worrying! But, i know you can manage it. Don't make you love ones worry about you! Take good care of yourself! There is always another way, as what i had mentioned. Life is getting tougher and tougher. However, there's always something more to life. "It is not about the destination (going to which Uni, or either whether the Uni accepts you or not), but the journey that matters. FCY has been really worried bout you SPY, she even messaged me to comfort you, i really hope that you will recover from this shocking news and be strong! =)
P.S: I know i can't really judge you the way i did as you are applying for medic U! But i sincerely hope that everything goes well! Cheers dude!

SuShi Lover: Thanks for your advice as well. Nice chat!!! Looking forward to seeing you!