The paradox of our time in history is that...
We have taller buildings, but shorter tempers.
Wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints.
We spend more, but have less.
We buy more, but enjoy it less.
We have bigger houses and smaller families.
More conveniences, but less time.
We have more degrees, but less sense.
More knowledge, but less judgment.
More experts, but more problems.
More medicine, but less wellness.
We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly,
laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry too quickly,
stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little,
watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.
We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values.
We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.
We've learned how to make a living, but not a life;
We've added years to life, not life to years.
We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet the new neighbor.
We've conquered outer space, but not inner space;
We've done larger things, but not better things.
We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul.
We've split the atom, but not our prejudice.
We write more, but learn less;
We plan more, but accomplish less;
We've learned to rush, but not to wait;
We have higher incomes, but lower morals;
We have more food, but less appeasement;
We build more computers to hold more information to produce more copies than ever, but have less communication.
We've become long on quantity, but short on quality.
These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion; tall men, and short character; steep profits, and shallow relationships.
These are the times of world peace, but domestic warfare; more leisure,but less fun; more kinds of food, but less nutrition.
These are days of two incomes, but more divorce; of fancier houses, but broken homes.
These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throw away morality, one-night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill.
Haha. This is pretty random but i have the sudden urge to blog at this moment. Random much right? When inspiration comes, there is nothing as random or not. I feel like blogging when i want to, but sometimes, it depends on my mood as well. =) Talking about blogging, it is actually something that is really good in a way or in a sense. Not only it improves your creativity, your vocab and many more. Some might think that it is a waste of time or its not worth the time blogging, but nah, i mean it depends entirely on yourself. =)) Okay, lets stop "lecturing" before you guys get fade up with this post of mine.
The blue hours....
It actually resembles the time period before dusk and after dawn. Why is it so specifically like before dusk and after dawn? Well, this is because it is the period where i can actually see and view the entire surrounding of mine or even accurately, the nature and environment around me being painted and coated with this really magnificent bluish color. It not only gives me a sense of peace in my mind and my heart, it also calms me down. It refrains me from thinking about something bad, the power of nature is really overwhelming to a stage that it actually acts as a medication to prevent us from thinking so much. This is always the golden time where i feel the real serenity of life. =) I can't help but falling in love viewing such picturesque scenery with my naked eyes. =) Everytime i am in despair, thinking and reminiscing about the blue hours, it simply enlightens me and gave me the power to continue on in life especially my hectic college life and also all incidents that had happened on me within this period of time. =)
*Looking at the picture, it gives me a sense of serenity within myself*
The blue hours.... It is always great as usual. Undeniably, during this period of time, the feeling of being in a microwave will be gone! =) Weather is getting rather weird, but at the blue hours, it is always the best, when you can actually feel the gentle breeze brushing along your face and your entire body! How comfortable it is?
The blue hours.... I learned to choose the best timing where i should actually carry out a task or not, i learned how to keep myself calm, i learned not to be that dependent on others, i learned that life is short and to live life to the fullest, cherish every moment and second! That's only where you have a real taste of life!
=)) The BlueeeeeeeeeeeeE Hours..... =))
*Long sigh*Finally, i laid my hand on the keyboard and update my blog again.
Holiday is over, college resumes. Been really busy lately. However college was really great, though with all the test and exams coming up, but, it has been a norm for me. Was really tired as i have been studying hard for my calculus test which i am not really sure how it will turn up though! (not emoing, just that i need ample rest!) Just don't feel like mentioning about it already, or else, it will bug me like the entire night. I hope it won't be a sleepless night for me!
Something came across my mind again this afternoon. And i think there is no one to blame but myself which caused myself unable to focus when i am studying. Argh, life is full of uncertainty =) sigh..
I... am .... literally... tired.
of EVERYTHING.
I am so tired physically as i have so much to do, and on my free time, I'm in front of my lappy, not playing games as usual, but searching for answers...
I searched and I searched and answers upon answers, i am still not satisfied.
The answer that i am actually searching for, is full of ambiguity. Maybe, the answer is never meant to be known.
Its a short post as i seriously ran out of thoughts. Hectic day today, seriously need some inner peace....
P.S: Be with me!
Remember, the time when we felt alive;
Remember, the time when we thought everything was alright;
Looks good? It always does;
But, a time comes when everyone has to lose.
The thought will get you saying, "life is unfair".
I've uttered mine....
幸せのバレンタイン
yukai barentaindee dei
It simply means Happy Valentine's Day... ♥
To all those couple out there, wish that you guys have an awesome one...
Was hoping for some miracles to happen during this special day =)
Before 12 am, i still wanna wish you Happy Valentine's Day!
Though i don't get any wishes today!
But, =)
Stay happy always !!!
♥ ya. ^^
P.S: Please accept my truthful and sincere wishes and love though it was for 15 minutes only.
Omg, Chinese New Year?
Dong Dong Qiang... Dong Dong Qiang...
Without realizing how "fast" the earth is spinning, how "slow" the time is ticking along, Chinese New Year is just around the corner. Or i should say, tomorrow is Chinese New Year!
Owh yeah, i love Chinese New Year a lot, because i get to gather around with my friends and of course, plenty of delicious cuisines are waiting for me to feast on. So peeps, don't get too surprise if i look a bit rounder when i get back to college.
Well, before Chinese New Year, we actually started to bring the Chinese New Year mood to ADP (because the CNY mood there looks pretty dead) by wearing red tops. =) However, not everyone participated in this "event" as it was being planned and held among a few of our friends only. It was really a nice one where we got to take pictures together during our free time! Camwhored for quite sometime! Owh yeah, CANDID!!! It is really awesome and its seriously gonna be part of an important memory in my life. ^^ (cause i never did that during high school, the feeling is just so right, owh yeah!) Did pretty much stuff after college, will write about it if i have the mood to do so. Laziness is overpowering me =(
Chinese New Year - a celebration, nothing much but on this particular special celebration, i get to meet up with my family and also my relatives and friends! And most importantly, the Reunion Dinner which i long await every year. We will eat among our family members but of course, the usual steambot at home. No doubt, home is still the best place.
To all my friends out there, i wish you guys GONG XI FA CAI. May the year of the golden tiger bring you good luck and prosperity! Wish that you guys have a blessed and happy Chinese New Year 2010. ^^
朋友们，新春佳节，祝你虎年大吉大利，大显身手，虎气冲天！！！
恭喜发财，身体健康 =）
新的（1）年开始了，
愿你好事接（2）连（3），
心情（4）季如春，
生活（5）颜（6）色，
工作（7）彩缤纷，
偶尔（8）点小财，
烦恼抛到（9）霄云外，
请接受我（10）全（10)美的祝福！
Please don't do that to me again.
I got over and you brought the issues back.
You helped me once, THANK YOU!
But,
You destroyed it, So Sorry, not forgiven!
I am sensitive?
Whatever,
Can't be bothered by that!
I told u i am stern with my decision!
Why force me?
My life...
Please don't interfere.
I am happy with who I am now!
Please,
Just let me live my life!
How long it takes for me to recover...
I hope you really understand...
You really upset me....
I hope,
This would be the First and also the LAST time......
Get A Life!!
To those who read my blog and whoever is being bugged by such problem!
Guys and girls, sometimes how u feel is just indescribable. Try putting the words together, and you mess it all up! Maybe all you need to do is just not to crack your head thinking too much. Things won't turn out to be as complicated as you think it is!
Go with Nike, JUST DO IT!!!
Sometimes, your intuition tells you the right thing to do just when you can't even explain why. A little prayer will help you out of your predicaments, or maybe even your peers will be a good cure for the wounds. A sincere confession relieves you from all the shit you are going through at the moment. Be sincere in the things you do for that special someone. Don't expect anything in return. Cause, as what the classic saying goes by, the greater hope or expectations you have, great disappointment will always be the one haunting you. "Great things take time!" (Have been through such shit, so perhaps, i understand the feelings that have been bugging you guys as well) So, what are we learning here? Patience. "Love is patience and kind." At the rock bottom of your life, don't fret. Just when you least expected it, what you've been out there searching for forever, is in your hands. Treasure the people around you. Trust me. Just for once! You will realize eventually that they are important, and indeed, priceless. It sounded exaggerating, but i hope you guys get to understand why i wrote it in such a way. Never abandon them cause they are the ones who will be there for you at the very end. There's no harm putting on a smile every single day, so cherish every beautiful moments you've had and kiss EMONESS goodbye. Haha. Guys, don't get me wrong, i am writing this not because i am emo-ing cause i just realize something i saw and yeah, i am about to kiss emoness goodbye now!
Love have always been the main issue among teenagers and yeah, my fellow friends and undeniably, me myself. But, Love can be the girls and boys realtionship thingie as well as love for friends. So, my post is basically meant for both parties! Fair not?!
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Alright, now its time for my agenda the entire morning. Well, as usual woke up and brushed up! Went to school with full of enthusiasm and yeah, i am not late today! But, when i reached college, there's something wrong with my tummy. OMG. How could u ever do that to me! The pain wasn't that excruciating, but, obviously, i need to use the restroom!! Okay, everything went well until when i got back to classroom, i was like WTH, POP.... POP.... POP QUIZZES!!! POP QUIZZ for CALCULUS! Omg, i have not been studying and what's worst, my notes and my hw is with Adam! I borrowed it to him cause i thought that our pop quiz will be held this Thursday! But unfortunately, i have to face the questions with my sole textbook. Was relieved that i did bring my textbook along, or else i will be literally dead, and i am gonna seriously count the velocity for me to do a projectile motion from the 12th floor of the ADP Building. The opportunity cost will be seriously great. Hell yeah, SHARON! Haha, brought back the VPO's again!
Okay, everything went well after that, just that, i was totally pissed with moral class. It was rather a waste of time being in Moral class which teaches me nothing, literally. Was frustrated, and i don't know how long i can endure going through this piece of shit the entire semester, but i guess, i have no choice but just to complete it with a P in my transcript. Or else i will be doom.
Okay, nothing much at the moment. SPY again, Spy hope that everything turns out well especially for ur uni application. I believe that Manchaster will reply you as soon as possible. And now, my thoughts is anticipating and telling me that something will be happening tomorrow - Stats Quiz! My life is full with quizzes! Sigh a bunch! I am kinda tired, should i start studying now or get a power nap?!?!
=))))
Things hasn't been going really well or right back on track, many things seems like its resolved but actually it doesn't at all, more and more obstacles and blockages are barging in your ways. This is so frustrating so infuriating so depressing and it just makes you feel so helpless, useless, pressured, and stressed. You are really lost on what you are going to do or where you are heading, whether the track you are on leads you to the right way or the other? You don't feel happy or being like you used to be. You feel so invisible and desolated. You are becoming moody everyday and anti social like an introvert. You feel lethargic and exhausted and really really worn out. You feel like crying to bed, screaming out loud, throwing things to let out stress and anger, slamming the door or whatever that makes you burst out in tears and breakdown. You want to run away, hide in a hole, go to places where you are all alone. You are really really down. No one cares, no one's there, no one is there by your side lending you a helping hand and shoulder, no one being there for you all the time. Time changes, things changes, everyone changes. You really miss those times again. Wish you could turn back time and change everything ? Is impossible. sigh.
I am bored.
Can anyone chat with me or entertain me?
Life is so boring.
I don't feel like studying today, but i need to start studying tomorrow!
Enjoyed my day today!
~Random much~
Weather is like piece of shit. Raining time to time. When there's no rain, it gets so warm and hot. I miss snow...
Drink more water my friend!
Do take care!
Cause, CNY is just around the corner!
Valentine is just around the corner!
You definitely won't want to find yourself falling sick on such a big day!
Good night World!
Toodles!!! =)
How does one and one becomes two? If only all things were so simple as to just being the way it is. Complication arise out of actions that people make and sometimes i feel caught in the lies of my own thought. If only life were more obvious and less twisted!
I keep thinking about my life nowadays, and reminiscing the past. Nah, i am not being nostalgic or any sort! I can't seem to find a sense of real happiness or satisfaction in my life over the past few months. I know that i have gained a lot of knowledge and abilities, and i have definitely know myself a lot more better! But thinking through, is it enough? I don't want to keep feeling like there's this "thing" in me that is trapped. I don't want to keep hiding, but fear is conquering me. I am seriously beyond stressing myself with my "deep" thoughts sometimes!
Going on and on and on about what my life can offer is really tense. I can't seem to find what is the right thing to do most of the time. Is it right if you aren't happy with what you are suppose to do? I want to be happy, who doesn't, but at what cost? Now, i think I'm playing safe most of the time, but somehow it's not really satisfying to just not let go and be truly real. A taste of real life is what i needed!
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On the other note, my friend has been getting really frustrated over his university application! Its gonna be a hard time for him, but that's life, ups and downs. We never ever hope for perfection and we can never ever hope that everything goes according to your will. Sometimes, its just solely fate and luck! Not being accepted into that particular uni, indeed, it is saddening. But don't ever get pulled back by all this, there is still a lot of universities all around the world! Spy, listen to me! Get back to your real self. I know its hard coping with your bloody stress lately as well as all the pressure and worrying! But, i know you can manage it. Don't make you love ones worry about you! Take good care of yourself! There is always another way, as what i had mentioned. Life is getting tougher and tougher. However, there's always something more to life. "It is not about the destination (going to which Uni, or either whether the Uni accepts you or not), but the journey that matters. FCY has been really worried bout you SPY, she even messaged me to comfort you, i really hope that you will recover from this shocking news and be strong! =)
P.S: I know i can't really judge you the way i did as you are applying for medic U! But i sincerely hope that everything goes well! Cheers dude!
SuShi Lover: Thanks for your advice as well. Nice chat!!! Looking forward to seeing you!
Watching the sun set, wondering if a better one will rise
As the earth spins without us bothering, it somehow went off course.
Life is a great gift by God and it can be simple or complicated depending on how you live it.
But sometimes, have any of you experienced difficulties that bothers you by someone else ?
As I write on, i believe some of you would not know where is this passage going, but somehow, i just feel like typing without thinking of the phrases.
1 year has passed since I left my growing shelter and 1 year ago, I was imagining about today's life.
Wondering who where when is going on...
Won't say that my college life is perfect because as good things come, bad things comes too.
If one loose something , something better will come back.
Its just that its really hurtful watching things or relationship drifting by helplessly, which I have done all i can but no one seems to be by my side when I need one.
After taking a deep breathe, closing my eyes, saying to myself it will hold on,
From the time we crossed path into each others lives,
We were best friends when we set our differences apart,
Together we've been through the stickiest situations,
When all of a sudden, its time for us to take a different path,
As we go on, we'll share our stories and
At the end of the day, we'd be proud that we've known each other.
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Owh, i have been officially accepted by Purdue University, West Lafayette! Whee, this news really made my day! Anyways, i still have to keep up with my studies! To all my friends out there who are applying for unis, all the best to you guys! Shall be looking forward for some good news from you guys!
Why?
"Why" have been bugging me and haunting me for the past few weeks and days.
Why?
I wanted to tell you, but i never have the chance, my courage is nearly nil.
I am frustrated. They told me not too. I tried, but, i was cheating myself, struggling deep in my heart, i am really confused.
Why?
You used to be the one i trusted much, but, i am afraid that what i whined about will never get to you. I'm no longer being the one you really understand much.
Why?
I have been hoping that you will live your life happily, but i have the sudden urge to somehow interfere them.
Why?
I always wanted to tell you something when i am down,
I wanted to tell you how i feel,
but,
i am afraid that your reaction will disappoint me,
i am afraid that what you tell me will never be the answer that i ought for.
Why?
If you listen to me attentively, i will think bout something that's not going to happen.
Why?
I prayed to God and at the same time, hopping for something good to happen.
I prayed to God, asking him to spare you with happiness.
I see you,
I see you,
I sincerely wished that what i prayed will be listened,
and finally,
You are happy everyday!
But,
My own wish can never still be fullfilled.
Why?
You won't understand my feelings,
every night...
tears,
flowing down my cheek,
and when tiredness struck,
i get into my dreamland,
with mostly nightmares and never ever a sweet dreams!
I hope for the best everyday,
But disappointment always struck me hard!
Everytime,
Everyday,
I pretended...
Such a pathetic life,
Is it worth thinking?
Is that a test from you, my LORD?
Why?
Why me?
YOU are the only one who sees the entire me, everyday, every hour, every minute, every second.
Why are you still so harsh to me.
It is an emo post(maybe too much emo songs today), but, i still want to post it, because, this is the way to express myself as no one will be listening to me...
WHY ='( sigh......
