Finally.....
Finally.....

It has been a really long and strainers day since i stepped my foot back in Malaysia! I was in real serious jet lag mood and my body clock is still not used the time zone in Malaysia! I really can't believe that i couldn't get use to the time here as i am really good in adapting to new environment, as usual, but well, perhaps, there is always exception in everything we do and it was all proven this time!

I arrived Malaysia around 4 p.m in the afternoon, after that, i had to go to my cousin's gf condo to collect all my stuff where i left them staying in that unoccupied condo for the entire month. Though she won't be seeing all this, i'd still like to express my deepest gratitude to her for being so kind allowing me to put all my stuff in her condo! Not to mention that, her trust in me where she passed her spare house key to me for more than a month, but i would say that i am real lucky cause everything is alright and everything is still in one piece when i get back to the condo!

I... struggled much!
I... have been missing heaps of fun!
I... am no longer that trustworthy!
I... have not been myself for quite sometime!
I... am stressed up!
I... couldn't sleep every night!
I... am partially sick!
I... hope everything gets back normal as soon as possible!

Because,
I don't want to waste and mess up my entire time and life thinking bout stuff that will never come true! I am going to face reality with my true self! Although it's gonna be a hard and harsh route ahead, sometimes, its worth strolling around all the obstacles ahead! It gives us opportunity to grow up, gain new experience!
Do take detour when u have chance! Opportunity comes only once and so, APPRECIATE IT!
Life is nothing but a journey that everyone has to face and so as i!
Why am i still complaining when everyone is doing the same thing?
Am i oughting for something that is really different?
And is it because i want to be the special one?

God, please be with me...
in time of loneliness,
in time of hardships!
The fear of loneliness that creeps all over me, really scares me off...
I am wondering...
and wandering....
The pain is beyond words:
I just see the years pass by in front of my eyes, and I am still wondering and wandering.
*PRAY*
I LOOK TOUGH AND STRONG, BUT, I AM ACTUALLY NOT....

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Alright, lets get over with all this emo stuff!

College

College has been great but not as great as what i thought. But well, don't hope much, as we have an ultimate goal of attending college - interacting, socializing and at the top of the list - STUDY!!!
Met bunch of my old friends again, really missed them a lot at the same time, we are now back again at the happy-go-lucky mood! Gossiping, crapping at certain time! ^^ In class, everyone looks so serious as though they are facing death! But well, it happens to me sometime, being over serious! Somehow, sometime, this ain't a bad thing at all, cause we tend to focus more! However, my timetable this semester is a little bit hectic compared to the last semester as i took 5 subjects and some of my classes end in the afternoon! However, i am not going to complain neither being bothered by this cause i really want to do well in my studies. As usual, i am not hopping to be a perfectionist, but i want to try my best with all my effort! My parents, placed a great bet on me, sending me to West Malaysia to further my studies. They, had been struggling hard, saving much, gotten sick a few times, hopping that their children do well even without their guidance, and with the ultimate aim of hopping that this investment worth the sacrificed they had gone through! Dad and Mum, i proudly speak here : I will try my best in times of difficulties, and be the best among the best, and not to disappoint you guys!

Nothing much to update bout college at the moment because i attended college only once, but there is something that is bugging me. T.T Tonnes and tonnes of notes, homeworks and catching ups that i need to do! Not to mention bout stress that i need to cope up with, constantly.... So, basically, i think i am going to camp at home finishing all my studies so that i can catch up with everyone the next week!

So peeps, a whole new chapter in our journey, so as next week! Hope that i will be in good form! That's all for now!
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~RL~