Short update

Hi guys!

Ever since the last "cursing" post, my internet connection seems to have a major problem and i am actually "using" other people's connection without their knowledge! Okay, this sounded wrong but i am kinda desperate. Internet has been part of my life ever since i own a laptop! =)

Okay, let's talk about Friday. Friday was a pleasant and happy day! Nothing much in college but i really need to express my gratitude again to my friend who send me all the way to Damansara to collect my insurance form! After that, we headed to ss14 for some Bak Kut Teh! It was really hot, i mean the weather, and we were sweating non stop and i was totally soaked wet! I hate the feeling somehow, cause, it made me felt uncomfortable and for some reasons, giving out an unpleasant odour! Alright, not to mention too, Friday was rather a boring one, cause that night, all my friends went to cyber cafe to play games. I am not so much into this game called dota, that's why i surrendered but i wasted part of my lifetime watching them gaming the entire night! After tat, Adam who had been hesitating whether not to go back to his hometown(Kampar) for certain reasons, suddenly called me out to yumcha! That was the right TIMING. He did not go back to his hometown and he was alone at home, and since i have nothing to do, so we went to the mamak beside JS for some drinks! We chit chatted for quite sometime until almost midnight, then we went back! LOL. Don't know what's there to chat about but it was pretty crazy! Haha

Saturday? Went to Pyramid for the whole day long! LOL. Yeah, met up with Suk Sin, Vivian, Yun Hui, Boon and Hui Ing. As usual, Shih Peng, Peng Yong and Adrian came by also. Amelia and TJ couldn't join us because they have their math exam tomorrow. All the best though! Had steambot last night! Alright, it was quite a nice one since we have not meet each other for quite sometime and its pretty hard for them to come all the way to Subang! Seriously speaking, just in this two days, i spent more than i could, and i ate more than i could, so i think i gain a lot of weight just in two days! Omg, seriously gonna start on a diet plan again! Haha, sounded pretty sissy? Ah, i can't be bothered by that. =)

Owh yeah, Australian Open. LOL. Knew that Henin lost to Serena Williams and i kinda expected that, cause the 'bull' is somewhat really hard to defeat! LOL. No worries anyways, there's always someone who will win and someone who loses. Be confident, next grand slam, who knows miracles might occur! Federer was awesome! He has been awesome all this while. That's all i know about the Australian Open! LOL...

Sunday! My friend is rushing me for lunch! So i think that's all for now! Owh yeah, i have not been studying throughout this whole weekend, later when i get back, i have to seriously dig a hole and hide myself in there to continue my studies. LOL. Alright guys, enjoy the rest of your weekends! Charge your battery to the max!

Happy always!

Ciao!

U

Yeah! YOU!

I really have a strong antipathy towards you now.

When i am trying to be lame, you think i am stupid!

A sardonic smile from you? Wad the hell????

When you are trying to be lame, you think you're cool and funny?

When the others are trying to be lame, you think they are humorous?

Let me tell you! Nah....... I seriously don't think you are as cool and funny as you thought!

Think bout it, with the sour-like face and downcast expression everyday!

Why complain so much?

Carry on with life and stop complaining.

You whine and whine!

You complained and complained!

Non-stop....

Come on,

You complained with the ultimate aim of?

Think bout it!

Bummer and loser!

Get the hell out of my life!

Don't talk to me like you know everything!

You left me with great misery!

Now i understand - complexity of human being!

朋友，振作！

感情并非每一段都是痛苦至极的！从失去中去发现自己的收获，那种感觉又是完全截然不同。

自从分手，开心的动容将会是很多很多的！

走着反方向的两个人，也许已经翻阅着不同的脚本，

过去的美丽，小心翼翼的留下！

过去的伤痕，适时的，要舍得让它和心中的泪一起离开。。。。

加油哦，我的朋友！！

好久没写华语了，当然还没退步！因为，我是华人嘛！

希望你看得明白，花了不少时间才顺利的把这段词给打完！

Carpe diem...

Carpe Diem....

This few days, i have been trying my very best to instill this two words in my thought. I never anticipate what will be happening tomorrow and the day after tomorrow because i am still in the state of confusion at times. Why is it so? I have no reason for this, but i am trying really hard to face my everyday life and enjoy my day to the fullest. Even if something turned out to be uneventful or seemed to be really hurtful, i think it's best to keep it to myself, cause there's no one that i can really trust on and spit my problems out to them. Maybe some of you might be wondering what about my parents? They are indeed my love ones, but, they are really busy and have been worrying a lot bout a lot of stuff back in my hometown, need not to say bout my academic fee that they needa worry about as i will be leaving to the US this coming August. So, in order to ease their burden, i prefer not to mention some of the 'minor' problems that have been bugging me recently. It had been a hard time for me, but i am really trying to be as cool as possible, be as strong as possible, be as wise as possible, and be as rational as possible so as not to show my embarrassing act and stupidity in front of my fellow friends and parents!

Seize the day! I am trying hard... It's true, we won't know what will be happening tomorrow. Does anyone knows? I would be glad for you if you really know what is going to happen tomorrow! So, indirectly, does this also tells me that i am really uncertain about my future? What's with my future? Will i be a successful person? Will i get the thing that i want and ought for? Will i eventually do the thing that i most interest in? Do i get to love the person whom i love?

Will i be happy in the near future? Or well, is it too early to worry about all this problem?

I have been cheering up many of my friends at times when they face difficulties, but somehow, sometime, i find it really contradicting towards my character. Have i been worrying too much about the others compared to myself? Am i someone who loves and cares bout the others more than myself? Arghh. It's gotta be true, at some point! However, let us try to view this problem in the other perspective. I think i did the right thing all the while, i never doubt what i did will harm myself nor my friends or peers around me. It has been the trend since we were borned to earth. Give and take.... Give and take... If you want the people around you to be happy, give more and stop whining all the time! Life is never FAIR! But, don't get upset by this. My sense of justice has dictation over my happiness, Justice tells me that i must be true to my conscience, never disregarding it for any reason. To be happy, i have to be me... And so yeah, that's me, cheering up, motivating the others, caring and worrying bout the others more than myself! What a joke!!!

I'm into rant mode again! I must pull back! I think perhaps, its time to think about myself now! Although i know it's hard and it takes a little time, but i will be working hard for it, trying to achieve my ultimate aim in life! I know myself the most compared to the others, i have been concealing the character of my true self for quite a long time, i also fully understand that my thoughts are never 'truly' mine, but largely the product and influence of the environment and peers around me!

Hah, its time to stop soon, cause i just remember that i need to study for my Physcis, Calculus as well as my statistics. I will never anticipate what is going to happen tomorrow, but i will always be ready for tomorrow and cherish the moment that i have at present!

CARPE DIEM!!!

^^

Written by a Guy

Time to quantumize the aspiring quantumizers and (existing quantumizegods) who want to be quantumized and will do quantumization

Girls pay attention!

Guys heed the comments..

We don't care if you're friends with other guys.

But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.

It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there.

We don't care if a guy calls OR TEXTS you, but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned. Nothing is that important at 2 a.m. that it can't wait till the morning.

Also, when we tell you you're pretty/ beautiful/ gorgeous/cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it. Don't tell us we're wrong. We'll stop trying to convince you.

The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.

Yeah, you can quote me.

Don't be mad when we hold the door open. Take Advantage of the mood im in.

Let us pay for you!

Don’t "feel bad"

We enjoy doing it.

It's expected.

Smile and say "thank you."

Kiss us when no one's watching. If you kiss us when you know somebody's looking, we'll be more impressed.

You don't have to get dressed up for us. If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the need to wear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you own. We like you for who you are and not what you are.

Honestly, I think a girl looks more beautiful when she's just in her pj's. or my shirt and boxers, not all dolled up.

Don't take everything we say seriously.

Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it.

Don't get angry easily.

Stop using magazines/media as your bible.

"Don't talk about how hott Chris Brown, Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney is in front of us".

It's boring, and we don't care. You have friends for that.

Whatever happened to the word "handsome"/"beautiful"?

I’d be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me with "Hey handsome!" instead of "Hey baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy" or whatever else you can think of.

On the other hand I’m not saying I wouldn't like it either.

Girls, I cannot stress this enough: if you aren't being treated right by a guy, dont wait for him to change. ditch his sorry ASS, he's a disgrace to the male population and find someone who will treat you with utter respect

Someone who will honor your morals.

Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest.

Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes.

Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel.

Someone who will stop what they're doing just to look you in the eyes....and say "i love you" ..and actually mean it.

Give the nice guys a chance

*Holding Hands

Girls :If you want to hold his hand, gently bump into it a couple of times.

Guys : Grab it if it happens more than once.

*Cuddling

Girls : When you want to cuddle with him, tell him you're cold

Guys : Automatically move closer to her.

*Movies

Girls : During a movie, if he puts his arm around you, tilt your head on his shoulder

Guys : Lift her chin up and kiss her.

*Loving each other

Guys : When she tells you she loves you, look deep into her eyes, give her a peck on the lips, and tell her you love her too... And mean it.

*Laying below the stars

Girls : When you're both laying under the stars, put your head on his chest and close your eyes as you listen to his steady heart beat

Guys : Whisper in her ear and link your hands with hers.

by: some anonymous guy =.=

i copy paste this. not that thoughtful =P

New leaf

This will be gonna be a short post. Woke up early today just to finish up my homework because i need to go to KL to meet my dad. He will be arriving KL around 9 something in the morning, but i think i will be only meeting him during lunch hour.

Why new leaf?
Cause today will be a better day...

This was the first time i woke up so early during a Sunday. What a miracle! Anyway, its Sunday. So peeps, lets leave all the worrying behind and enjoy your day to the fullest. For all those who have been worrying much the past few days, do something that interest u most today, because college is gonna start tomorrow and all the burden and stress will be back. Good luck, my friend!

Have a nice day ^^

Achieving happiness ???

LIFE? - Total mess


Smile, be happy, accept who you are,
Achieve your dreams and you will go far.
When things are bad and not going your way,
Don't give up there's always another day.
When running a race, you begin at start;
Don't back down, follow your heart.
Life is not always a piece of cake,
Sometimes you give, sometimes you take.
Life is not about keeping score or things that happened in the past,
It's about how many lives you've touched and the love that will always last.
So travel the road life gives you,
And take your time to find the real you.

~~~~~

Can i smile, be happy at the current state?
Is there always another day?
I followed my heart, but it never turned out right.
I give...
Taking is impossible, why? Guide me... Is it due to selfishness?
Human nature?
Time passes by, and i am still lost...

I departed from the point with full of excitement and enthusiasm, after strolling around for years and years, i finally get back to the same point where i once departed..
Life?
I feel so miserable.
Things just happened randomly in life
I'm not sure how i really felt right now
I'm numb
All i know is that i live my life everyday trying my best to make myself occupied as an excused to ignore everything that i have to face in life
Should i move on or stay back?

Saturday...

So its Saturday again. Woke up really early today as i have to sit for my SAT test.
Was kinda tired at the same time.

The test wasn't as good as i thought, but i hope everything will go well. Have been thinking a lot during the test! Which i should not. It doesn't worth the money and time thinking bout some stupid issues. But, i can't help, showing my stupidity....
Have a great antipathy towards myself, but there's no point ranting here.
I lost faith in everything...

Hmm, what a day.
Homework and some studies that i need to catch up!

Well, and i finally realize something and i mean i knew something! =) And i know what exactly i need to do! I shall quit, literally, although i have been really putting a lot of effort in this matter! It has been real tired carrying this whole load of thing on my back! It's the time... with no regrets....

Tired....
Fighting spirit is nearly nil.....

To my dear friends who went to Genting today, wish that you guys have a whole load of fun. thanks for the invitation, but i apologize as i am not able to make it with u guys.

Sigh..................................

Eighteen + One

It had been a really long day for me, yet it was a really special day for me! (somehow unique)

Since last night, my phone had been technically 'ringing' and flooded with text messages where bunch of my lovely friends actually texted me to wish me Happy 19th Birthday! Emphasizing on the 19, cause i know i am older now, but, whatever, i need to accept the fact that i am turning 19. The fact that i am 19, nothing change much, but i know, i must not act as if i am a naive child not knowing anything, i have to be a little bit more mature, independent and being rational in whatsoever stuff that i am doing.

Well, it was a really long day, due to tiredness, i am not able to reply some of the text messages last night as i went to bed early. I hereby apologize for not responding to you guys, but from the bottom of my heart, i really appreciate everything that what you guys had done, especially someone who needed to set her alarm waking up amidst her dream though she was exhausted! Thanks a bunch again! Not thinking much, i doze off and awaits a whole new day in college!

I woke up early in the morning, with full of excitement, hopping that i get surprises when i open my eyes from the darkness for after a whole 5 hours of deep sleep. Eventually, it was a disappointment, but, i learned a lesson instantly. If we put great hope on certain thing, and if it doesn't come true, disappointment will definitely strike you hard on ur head. What a nice 'present' (lesson) i had for my 19th birthday. Went to college, but it is always as dull as usual especially in the morning, and it gets really lifeless when i see everyone still sleeping and laying on their desk, probably still in their dreamland. But never blame them, they might be the wise one, and perhaps with this short nap, they might be getting even fresher and what they absorbed in class is what you wouldn't have expected. That's pretty cool, but, thats my own theory! As usual, i love creating theories, and probably, in my whole life, i have tons of theories that no one can even finish viewing/understanding them. Sounds exaggerating? Its up to you to believe it or not! But hey guys, don't get me wrong, all this theories created was solely for entertainment purposes so that at least i see a smile on your face! A wicked grin indicating that i am lame is alright as well, not being bothered by this stuff as long as i see my friends smiling and being happy at the same time!!!

So, yeah, birthday birthday, but it never turned out to be as happy as i thought, cause i have class, class and class. That's why i called it a unique day! LOL. Haha.
Some, wishes me
Some, does not
Some, never bother
Some, can't be bothered
But well, this is life, just a wish, nothing much to mind bout! And another thing, on my special day, i think i committed a really serious offence, i actually skipped Mr Izwan's moral class. Hmmm, maybe i should think bout it tonight before i get to bed!

Yeah, that's practically what i can talk bout college, cause college is so boring and stressful at the moment, thinking bout college for even a second would definitely kill thousands of my brain cells. So, the best way is not to think bout it first, after my big day, then i will try as hard as possible to think of some solution so that i can handle the really misrable ADP!

Long day in college.... It should be fun. Plans - crossing through my mind, my friend's mind. But they kept asking me to decide where to go, what to do. I am really so new to west Malaysia, in terms of party lifestyle, celebrating birthday lifestyle, gosh, how on earth am i suppose to know what's the ideal place to go? So eventually, i still let them decide! And finally - the master plan. A typical one - dinner then movie! LOL. But nothing much to complain, it was really awesome, at least the few hours of joy compensated all the miserable feelings that i had in college! It wasn't really miserable though, sounded contradicting, but, yeah, when fun arrives, who would actually think that college is better than hanging out when there is no stress and worrying to catch up with!
We went to Pavilion for a movie - LEGION. It was premier, so the cinema was slightly packed and congested, but we were lucky cause there were still tickets available when we reached there. There are 5 of us - Jason, Adam, Nicky, Kevin and me myself. Wanted to call Sharon and Yen Yee out, but perhaps, they are a bit busy and going out at night especially at this hour and yeah, college is still on tomorrow - all this factors lead to the absence of the two girls!!! T.T
Anyway, the movie, was merely owhkay i would say, not that its bad, but for me, it doesn't give me the wow feeling, the movie really lacks the WOW factor. But no harm watching them, its still nice! ^^

I think thats all for now, will upload some pictures if possible! Am really tired, but still wanna get my blog updated cause everything is still fresh in my mind! Literally.... Cause i am half awake half asleep now!

So, we shall conclude the day by:
Thanks guys and gurls, for all the wishes!
Had tons of shockingly sweet surprises and blasts coming my way. Thanks everyone (fellow Taylor-ians, ADP dudes and chicks, awesome roomies, long lost friends, family members and relatives, and whoever you are out there) for all the surprises, greetings, wishes, benedictions, and blessings. =)


P.S - No presents this year again! But nah, its not a problem for me. It has been like this for around x years!

WORRY & EXPECTATIONS

WORRY

Worry doesn't change a thing
It only wastes my energy
Thinking madly of a thing
That may not even come to be

Worry is a thing I do
To stop a useful thing being done
To block the flow of life I live
And stop myself from having fun

Caste those "worry" thoughts away
And focus on what's happening now
Focus on the positive side
Just start with what you can allow

EXPECTATIONS

Life isn't as we all expect
It doesn't go that way
We have to make the most of it
And take it day by day

Have no regrets about the past
And do not live in fear
Of what might come, and never does
Just put your focus here

Here in this moment, that's the place
To make the most of life
Whatever comes, just turn it 'round
Create some joy from strife

I know you have that strength in you
I've seen it there before
Just draw on that to see you through
Don't look back anymore.

~S remember this~

“It always seems impossible until its done.”

I am actually mentioning bout my studies!

Have not been studying throughout the weekend as my thoughts are totally messed up! Luckily, i wasn't screw up by all this upcoming problem that easily and i am coming back!

So, i think i need to start studying and cope up with everything. Just did my application to Iowa State Uni as a backup just in case the other uni does not accept me!

Calculus 3 is kinda killing me at the moment cause i don't understand part of it!

Statistics - no comment, cause i din even bother to read! I hope everything will be alright and i will start burning midnight oil, as usual!

So, that's all peeps. This post is just to remind me to study and not to go to the net all the time!

~RL~

Finally....

Finally.....

Finally.....

It has been a really long and strainers day since i stepped my foot back in Malaysia! I was in real serious jet lag mood and my body clock is still not used the time zone in Malaysia! I really can't believe that i couldn't get use to the time here as i am really good in adapting to new environment, as usual, but well, perhaps, there is always exception in everything we do and it was all proven this time!

I arrived Malaysia around 4 p.m in the afternoon, after that, i had to go to my cousin's gf condo to collect all my stuff where i left them staying in that unoccupied condo for the entire month. Though she won't be seeing all this, i'd still like to express my deepest gratitude to her for being so kind allowing me to put all my stuff in her condo! Not to mention that, her trust in me where she passed her spare house key to me for more than a month, but i would say that i am real lucky cause everything is alright and everything is still in one piece when i get back to the condo!

I... struggled much!

I... have been missing heaps of fun!

I... am no longer that trustworthy!

I... have not been myself for quite sometime!

I... am stressed up!

I... couldn't sleep every night!

I... am partially sick!

I... hope everything gets back normal as soon as possible!

Because,

I don't want to waste and mess up my entire time and life thinking bout stuff that will never come true! I am going to face reality with my true self! Although it's gonna be a hard and harsh route ahead, sometimes, its worth strolling around all the obstacles ahead! It gives us opportunity to grow up, gain new experience!

Do take detour when u have chance! Opportunity comes only once and so, APPRECIATE IT!

Life is nothing but a journey that everyone has to face and so as i!

Why am i still complaining when everyone is doing the same thing?

Am i oughting for something that is really different?

And is it because i want to be the special one?

God, please be with me...

in time of loneliness,

in time of hardships!

The fear of loneliness that creeps all over me, really scares me off...

I am wondering...

and wandering....

The pain is beyond words:

I just see the years pass by in front of my eyes, and I am still wondering and wandering.

*PRAY*

I LOOK TOUGH AND STRONG, BUT, I AM ACTUALLY NOT....

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Alright, lets get over with all this emo stuff!

College

College has been great but not as great as what i thought. But well, don't hope much, as we have an ultimate goal of attending college - interacting, socializing and at the top of the list - STUDY!!!

Met bunch of my old friends again, really missed them a lot at the same time, we are now back again at the happy-go-lucky mood! Gossiping, crapping at certain time! ^^ In class, everyone looks so serious as though they are facing death! But well, it happens to me sometime, being over serious! Somehow, sometime, this ain't a bad thing at all, cause we tend to focus more! However, my timetable this semester is a little bit hectic compared to the last semester as i took 5 subjects and some of my classes end in the afternoon! However, i am not going to complain neither being bothered by this cause i really want to do well in my studies. As usual, i am not hopping to be a perfectionist, but i want to try my best with all my effort! My parents, placed a great bet on me, sending me to West Malaysia to further my studies. They, had been struggling hard, saving much, gotten sick a few times, hopping that their children do well even without their guidance, and with the ultimate aim of hopping that this investment worth the sacrificed they had gone through! Dad and Mum, i proudly speak here : I will try my best in times of difficulties, and be the best among the best, and not to disappoint you guys!

Nothing much to update bout college at the moment because i attended college only once, but there is something that is bugging me. T.T Tonnes and tonnes of notes, homeworks and catching ups that i need to do! Not to mention bout stress that i need to cope up with, constantly.... So, basically, i think i am going to camp at home finishing all my studies so that i can catch up with everyone the next week!

So peeps, a whole new chapter in our journey, so as next week! Hope that i will be in good form! That's all for now!

+.+

~RL~

Ne-Yo

Love this song very much!!!

Last day in Switz

This is my last day and actually last night in Switzerland. I was under a youth exchange program for a month in Switzerland and it is really amazing here! One word - A.W.E.S.O.M.E

Since today is my last day and also the first day for me to start blogging, i hope that everything actually works out well and also, i really hope that i can get back to my usual life back in Malaysia! I personally have been hopping that i can get back to Malaysia as soon as possible, because i want to meet bunch of my great friends, at the same time, someone who i care, as well as all the joy my friends had during this long break! However, i felt really reluctant now as this is human nature, i really can't deny that i am really missing this place deadly cause i get to meet bunch of nice people (Europeans) who actually look highly on the asians! They ain't racist as what most people thought!

Anyway, the fact is just right in front of my eye, i gotta move my ass back to Malaysia - somewhere i belongs!

Throughout the stay, i have been to deep troubles, great fun, new experience, different culture which worth a lot and also gave me a lot of thought bout how my future and the reality world is! It must be a really helpful experience that will definitely enlighten my future in a way, somehow! Yeah, literally! Haha. I will be posting more and more bout this trip and more pictures will be coming up! I thought of creating this blog solely because of the influence of one of my best friend! Through his encouragement, although it seems very bothering sometimes and i am not really a blogging guy, however, i am proven wrong! I can finally keep everything out of my mind and spit everything out in this blog which indirectly minimizes my stress and also burden!

I think that's all for now peeps. Its not a long one and i am not going to do a long one either cause i have plans ahead that i have not accomplish! The easiest stuff in the world but it seems like the hardest thing ever for me -PACKING and MOVING my ASS bk to M'SIA!

Good day guys! I know no one will be visiting my blog, but, its a good thing too, at least i can reveal some of my secrets here without the knowledge of anyone!

~Ciao~ frm Switz