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What word best describe my feelings now?

PISSED

How i wish there is something that i can punch on or kick on non stop till i am really exhausted so this bad feeling will get away from me. I just can't explain more. Why on earth such "thing" existed in the first place?

Why? Tell me why? I am not emo, i am just literally pissed bout certain matter. Tolerance has a limit and finally yeah. Whatever. I shouldn't have choose to take this route. Nevermind, there's always a detour. I finally do realize something which i am always ignoring all the time.

So yeah. And some "things" are really fake. If you want it then go for it. Geez man, don't stroll around and make stupid lame acts everyday.. I despise you! Sick and tired. What? You thought you the almighty clown? If i were given a chance, i will just tell you in your face! What's with all this stupid action? This is just so immature and this shows your stupidity.

One day, you will realize all this. You should feel sorry for being such a person. And i am sorry for you too. I am not that good, but you are certainly the worst ever. Why are you doing this when your friends are having difficulties? Aren't you too much or being inconsiderate enough?

It's really a bad day here today! And i hope everything comes to a halt. I am not choosing to be in denial but i just want all this to pass by as soon as possible so that i am clear with what i am up to again.

You're just not as worthy as i thought!

Silence

Had been a really tough and hectic week.

Stress is really coping up and accompanying me day by day.

Wonder if i am at the right path at the moment.

Once again, my surrounding is filled with silence.

I hate it, but, i just can't help.

Alright, finals is drawing near and it will be in a fortnight time. I wonder if i have enough time in order to finish my studies even if i actually start now. Parents went to Australia for approximately 10 days. No one to talk too. Sigh sigh.

But, at least, i can really concentrate well at the moment. I just want this to persist on till the last day of my finals. I really don't wanna screw up everything though i know i had actually screwed up some of the subjects. Contradicting aye? Nvm, contradiction is my forte. But, something worst is even bugging me lately - procrastination! I procrastinate all the time and this is seriously gonna affect me in a way.

How am i suppose to get rid of this "parasite"????

微笑

一个微笑，仅有几秒，就转瞬即逝，但留下的回忆，终生美好。

是啊，一个微笑的威力，可见是多么地大啊！

一个微笑，可以使别人信心大增，也可以让人和谐相处。。。

但，为何我办不到呢？

最近，一旦遇到什么事情，都尝试用微笑来试看决绝问题。。。

但，总是找不到决绝的方法。

真的觉得有点累。。。

功课，考试等等，都不停地在给我压力。有时候，还真难渡过。。。

只好找父母倾诉倾诉一下，但，又觉得这个办法真的行不通。。。

在家靠父母，在外靠朋友，为什么好像我在外也需靠父母呢？

是我不成熟吧！也许，我还不够独立吧！

微笑？还真好笑呢。不知我该不该相信人人经常说的“微笑的威力”。。。

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So guys, am just back from the library and have the sudden urge to blog. Have not been blogging or visited any blogs lately. So, yeah, missed pretty much stuff and also updates from my friends!

So, let's start with college life. College life is as usual, hectic one. And during the month of April, it would be even more hectic than usual as finals, projects and loads more of assignments and homework are going to due soon. I am pretty lazy for the past few weeks trying to give myself a break, relaxing, but now, for the rest of the day, i think i should really start studying. Like seriously hardcore study. Seeing my A levels friends studying hard while i am relaxing, i find it really pathetic and saddening. So, yeah, its the time to start studying i suppose before i flunk this semester.

And owh, by the way, i had my haircut. I find myself looking like a nerd so as everyone. Was pretty upset with my haircut, but lol, hahaha, it doesn't really bother me much at the moment already as what has been done is done. Nothing can be done to rewind all this "catastrophe" from happening. So, well well well..... Life goes on! Haircut is just a small matter, it will grow back soon and its only the time that matters! ^^

So, bout my life. Life is pretty awesome as i started not to think much compared to what i have been doing for the past few months. That's pretty much a success for myself, i think. Though, i know, i have been through great depression, and this is my first ever experience and i hope it would also be last! Luckily my parents and siblings were there for me though!

Friends.... Talking bout friends, sometimes i just wonder what on earth they are thinking. Its just to hard to understand or rather know whether they are your true friend. Its kind off deceiving at times, but yeah, i just can't comment much! Life is always full of these type of people and this is the main factor that leads to an incomplete life. Now, i just hope for the best. Yet, at the same time, hoping that time passes quickly, so that i just can get out of this really vague and blur friendship ahead! A friend in need is a friend indeed? I shall reconsider that statement for the time being! Sometimes, i just wanna use the F word right in their face but i know its to mean. I am not trying to hate anyone, but, its just that i have a really strong antipathy towards this type of person for real.

Calculus test is drawing near, so as stats and physics. Haha, moral test tomorrow. But i am so not gonna study for it, as i dont even have ample time for my calculus. So, its time to leave all this blogging business or rather facebook business aside and get back to my working position.

Ciao guys, shall update again once i am free! =)

Tired...

TIRED !!!!!

Phone calls

Dad calls everyday

Mum calls everyday

Bro called just now

He texted me

She texted me

She msn me

He msn me

He advise me

They advise me

All because of one thing!

How wonderful!

Back!!!

Hey peeps,

I am finally back! =)

It has been a really long time since i last came here (visit my blog) as i was really tied up with homeworks, test, quizzes and stuff. Well March, life is getting more and more hectic, but i believe that i can endure through this entire month. Its hard but we gotta move on right? That's the purpose of being alive! Haha. Well, i can't really say that verbally as i know when the time comes, i might not be able to handle the pressure and stuff but i am pretty sure with the supports from my lovely friends and of course family, everything will be fine. Guys and gurls, think positive. I used to think the other way in the past and i found out that i am in mist and totally lost. Haha, but i am better now! =) Like seriously, everything is cleared! I've been through the darkest time in my life, but i am not sure how dark it will be compared to the coming pressure ahead. Finals and stuff like when i actually get to the US. Anyways, i must thank my family for being really caring and understand as they try to cheer me up! =)

I am getting real tired. Owh, recently, i watched a really good video. I will actually speak about it when i am free. Tired tired, its time to go for a short nap. To be continue.....

Owh, life in college is great now! =))

Ciao ppls!